By Sam

When all your life you’ve been the one to get hurt in a relationship it is another thing when you bring that pain to somebody else. Its one thing when you’ve been taken for granted but then it’s different when you take somebody else for granted. This is like my vengeance unleashed.

Over the years of my previous relationships, I guess you can say I didn’t know how I was supposed to be treated. I was so blinded by the idea of love that I didn’t realize that my feelings were being tossed around like a football. I thought I had met the man of my dreams, my high school sweetheart but boy I was wrong. He was good to me but looking back I have to say he could have and should have done more. After all the chances I gave him and the effort I put into that relationship, I deserved more. Then he drew the last straw and he begged and begged me to take him back but I stood my ground and told him no.

Then I met a gentleman, a sweetheart. As my mom would put it, “He’s an old man in a young body.” I love him with all my heart and I know that he’s the guy for me, he’s my future. But I have been keeping secrets. I hurt him the exact same way I got hurt and I’ll never forgive myself for it. How many times have I told myself that I wouldn’t do this to anybody because I know what it feels like but I don’t know what came over me. Yet, I unleashed my vengeance.

Anyways the secret came out in a very messy way and I’m convinced that I’ve lost him forever. I write this with tears in my eyes and pain in my heart. I love you more than anything in this world. You have showed me love more than those whom I expect it from. You’ve made me happy in so many ways. I’m sorry for deceiving you and I hope that one day you can trust me again.